Preparing for the swim, amid wetsuits, sans wetsuit
There’s a piece of me that would like to begin this story about completing my first-ever Olympic Distance Triathlon by clinging to the lie in the title — I won, I won, I won! Reality is, I came in last place. 168th out of 168 who finished the race, 69th out of the 69 women who finished the race, and eighth out of the eight women in the 50-54 age division.
There were reasons why I finished last, but the second reality is the fact that I didn’t mind finishing last. Honestly. Let me explain why.
My finishing time of 4 hours, 2 minutes, and 53 seconds was about 17 minutes slower than the fastest I thought I could finish, and about 27 minutes faster than what I thought would be my slowest time. I finished the swim seven minutes faster than I expected I would, the bike ride right on target, and the run about four minutes faster. I have memories of triathlons in Honolulu where I rode my bicycle into the transition zone, tore off my helmet, and dashed out for the run only to feel my legs almost immediately turn into dead weight. My legs and my entire body felt well-oiled and smooth as I headed out for the run, and stayed that way for most of the 6.2-mile pace. Those results told me that while I learned a lot about how I could improve my triathlon skills from this event, I had trained for it as well as I could for the time and space that my body and my life are in now.
A second reason why I didn’t mind finishing last: I looked at the 2012 race results last night. The triathlon’s Olympic distance is apparently an event that doesn’t seem to draw many general athletes. Of last year’s finishers, the slowest had a time of 4 hours and 11 minutes, and the second slowest was 4 hours and six minutes. This year, even if I had finished as fast as my wildest dreams had allowed me to hope, I would have been in the bottom six of the total number of participants. The point was that I finished, had fun, and felt very good afterwards.
And received some good “swag”: a sun cap, a technical shirt, a water bottle, bottle opener, and a few complimentary packages of energy gel.
This is a significantly different scenario from a duathlon I completed 11 years ago in Honolulu. Entitled the Honu, it consisted of a run followed by a swim and a second run. There were fewer than 50 participants. I finished dead last.
I was angry at myself, even though all of my times were quite strong for me. I was ashamed when I crossed the finish line, and I thought all of the cheers from spectators, other racers, and volunteers were ways of mocking me, rather than supporting me. I remember going back to the sunny peaceful bay in the middle of the course where we had done the swim because that was the only place where I thought no one would find me. I sunk myself into a small lagoon by the beach and nearly snarled when someone did come by and congratulated me on a fine performance. I was so upset with the whole state of affairs that I stormed from the lagoon to my car. I was about to leave when I heard the announcer asking everyone to gather for the awards ceremony. Some little nagging voice inside me told me that I was being a poor sport and to at least have the good grace to show some aloha and applaud for the winners. I headed back, and to my surprise, I was one of the winners. I had come in last place overall, but there were so few participants that I finished third in my division.
“It’s really great that you came out for this race,” one of the top finishers from that event said to me later. He was an elite athlete, used to high-stakes training and racing. “We need a wider array of participants. Otherwise, events like this are never going to take off.”
Getting marked at the check-in
His words stayed with me for many years that followed. I felt today that I would express the same wish for the Fronhofer Tool Triathlon’s Olympic Distance event. I can understand how the Olympic Distance can intimidate, and how perhaps the fairly high cost of acquiring what’s coming to be seen as “necessary” gear (wetsuits for the swim, aero bars and high-performance foods, and super-light bikes, and costly shoes and pedals for the bike ride; and expensive performance shoes for the run) plus the prices one must pay to train with a group, access a safe lake in which to swim in a state park, and hire a personal trainer can completely deter participation. When I signed up for the triathlon in February, the very price tag of the registration — $80 — caused me to flinch. I knew I would be investing some money in getting my racing bike (which had been sitting in a box for six and a half years) tuned up and ready to roll, and that running shoes are generally good for about 300 to 500 miles. The fact that I was able to pull off completion without spending much more highlights the fact that the distance is do-able, and so I do hope I have more “general athletes” accompanying me in future years.
After the Honu (which by the way is the Hawaiian word for turtle, think slow and steady), I made it a point to stay for as many awards ceremonies as I could for the events in which I competed. Not to see if I won, as much as to cheer those who had cheered and supported me, not mocked me. My husband often has complained about this fetish of mine, and I don’t blame him, especially since we do sports in communities where we have virtually no friends who join us in our endeavors. It can be tiring — and maybe a little weird — to be cheering on strangers, strangers who usually seem to be surrounded by friends. Yet, I also remember him seeing a woman at the 26.0 mile mark of the Honolulu Marathon 12 hour into this amazing race where the course does not close until the last person crosses prepare to sit down on the course and quit altogether when she realized she still had to make it up the final pathway of Kapi’olani Park to get to the finish line. “Don’t do that!” he bellowed. “Don’t stop, now.”
He and I and a group of friends in Honolulu surrounded her with reassuring words, pointed our fingers at the finish line, which lay just ahead, and handed over several bars of chocolate as an incentive to keep her going. She was laughing so hard that she forgot whatever negative energy she was feeling previously and was striding strong to her finish as we parted.
Today began cold and drizzly. I left the house in cotton pants and a long sleeved shirt, and put on my swimsuit when we stopped for a bathroom break en route. The drizzly was an open rain as I racked my bike and set up my transition area. My hands and feet were getting clammy and cold, and I was afraid that my fingers would go numb. Pulling on my hoodie helped a little as did frequent swigs of coffee and general dancing to the disco beats emanating from the check-in area.
I went to look at the lake. It was clear, and one of the volunteers told me the water temperature was 71 degrees. The race organizers had recommended wetsuits if the temperature was below 74.
“Do you have a wetsuit?” the volunteer asked.
I neither own nor have ever swum in a wetsuit.
“Oh dear,” the volunteer said. “I feel for you.”
Another racer told me as we were standing in a picnic pavilion trying to stay dry that wetsuits help swimmers with buoyancy as much as they keep them warm. I had feared the price tag previously. Suddenly, thinking about numb toes and blue fingers, I began to wonder if I should have either found a way to budget for one or to have not registered for the triathlon altogether.
My spirits lifted as I saw another swimmer in a swimsuit, like mine.
Preparing for the swim
As we entered the water, my nerves were calmed. The water was quite comfortable, and once the race began, I felt very grateful that I did not have a wetsuit because my body was warm enough, as is.
Getting ready to bike
Running up from the beach, I noticed that the rain had stopped and the sun had broken through the clouds. I got on my bicycle, and within the first five miles, experienced my first calamity: my chain dropped off the gear shaft. As I unclipped my shoes from the pedals and got off my bike to fix the chain, three bikers passed me.
“Looking good,” they said. “Have a good ride,” I responded.
Between mile 10 and 13, I began to hit my groove. I passed one rider, and at mile 14, entered a parking lot, which served as a water bottle exchange site and a turnaround area. I waved to the volunteers handing out water, telling them I was fine, and began the return half of the bicycle loop. About three minutes out of the turnaround, I realized that something was wrong. My bike began to feel as if it was unbalanced and pulling me backwards. Carefully, I slowed down, unclipped, and took a look. My front tire had a flat.
“Oh shit,” I exclaimed, feeling like I’d probably have to drop out of the race.
I crossed the street, and slowly rode back to the transition zone, where the volunteers were beginning to pack up as the last rider had passed.
“I have a flat tire,” I said.
“I don’t have a tube on me,” one volunteer said.
“I don’t either,” I replied.
“Well, someone can probably give you a ride … wait, here’s someone saying they have a tube.”
That someone was Matt McMorris, who later introduced himself to me as the president of the Saratoga Triathlon Club. “Let’s get you back into this race,” he said. “You have plenty of time.”
I wasn’t wearing a watch and had no idea of the time. So I stole a look at his watch. 9:52 a.m. The course didn’t close until 1 p.m., and I figured I could bike the remainder and complete the run in two and a half hours.
“How’re you doing?” a deputy with the local sheriff department asked me.
“Oh, pretty good,” I said, looking at my tire.
“It seems like you’re having a challenging day.”
I considered the point. Then, I laughed. “You know, I’m not having a bad day at all. Flat tires happen. I’m having fun. I hope I can finish this race. That’s really all that matters.”
He whistled a bit, maybe in disbelief and maybe in appreciation.
After Matt finished replacing the tube and pumping my tired, we noticed several threads fraying out from inside the tire’s tread. He didn’t have anything to cut the threads with, so the deputy bent down and bit them off with his teeth.
“Now you can say you have kissed a tire,” I said laughing.
Finishing the bike ride
I estimated later that the time spent fixing my chain and dealing with flat tire added 15 minutes to the ride. Subtracting those minutes would have put me in at least second-to-last place and given me close the best finishing time I felt I could have hoped for. But woulds, coulds, and shoulds only matter when they become helping points for the future. Zooming along on my bike, I realized that being at the very back of the pack, at the actual end of the line, actually relaxed me. I decided to concentrate on pacing and on training, and to actually do what I always told myself events like triathlons and marathons were about — pushing yourself to do your best.
I pulled into the transition zone as several competitors were completing their runs.
Cars packed with racers were exiting the parking lot. Still, everyone who saw me cheered me on. I saw it as support, and not as a gesture of mocking.
My time was 2:45 as my bike rolled over the timing mats. Hmm, I thought. About what I had expected, pre-race.
As I headed out for the run, the announcer pealed out my race number over the loudspeaker and saying I was heading out for the run. Dozens of bystanders cheered, clapped, and yelled, “Go 85 (my race number)!” I felt the same way I felt when, after submitting my final dissertation to my university’s graduate division, I introduced myself to a group of dancers as “Dr. Himanee.” Their cheers, applause, and foot stomps lasted three minutes and brought tears to my eyes.
On the final leg of the run, a posse of motorcyclists began roaring past me. I think there were 300 men and women riding four to five people abreast. A volunteer on the course laughed. “You’ve got your own parade!”
As I headed into the final half-mile, I yelled to a volunteer, “What time is it?”
“Don’t worry about the time,” he said. “Just keep going.”
“Just tell me,” I said. “I need to know if I’m on track.”
He laughed, maybe in disbelief. “About three minutes till 12.”
Good, I thought. I’ll finish faster than last year’s last place finisher!
I crossed the line, was high-fived a few times, and handed a water bottle. My husband congratulated me, and asked me how I was feeling. I told him I felt great, had had a blast, and was looking forward to doing the triathlon next year.
Then, a wave of dizziness hit me, and I nearly fainted.
Is there a moral to this story? I’m not sure at this point. I will say that I felt that this triathlon lived up to its reputation of being well-run, carefully organized, and for having great “swag”. I think, though, that the best “swag” might have been the faces and voices on the course who helped keep me from stumbling and for offering cheers and well-wishes even if they only knew me as “85.” I also appreciated the learning I received from the experience, and look forward to the next great event: the Adirondack Marathon in seven weeks.
(All photos are by Jim Gupta-Carlson, professional photographer/personal husband)